Something or other,

Kate, 17,
Wodonga, Victoria, Australia
Senior Secondary College
Who i am now is completely different to who i was ten months ago.
I would do anything to have one last dance with you.
Life really isn’t what i pictured it to be.

Eh, 😥

I feel like I should be sorry…
Think I’ve just fucked up a friendship that I didn’t no I still had..

I’ve already lost my bestfriend because of you, and I miss him.
But because I posted a check in on Facebook you over react and cause a huge argument that was pathetic and not worth it…
You have taken this way to far I was with a family friend that I have known for years we were just hanging out like friends do…

I don’t want to lose our friendship but I’m sure it’s to late for that..

I feel like I should be sorry but do I really need to be?
Am I actually the one in the wrong?

  • me: wow I'm actually happy right now
  • life: lol now hold on just one minute

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Why does getting you back seem to be the hardest thing I’ve had to do?
Talking like we do is not getting us anywhere and I’m to scared to say I want to see you on a weekend because I have the strangest feeling we will just run out of things to talk about, where once upon a time we could talk for hours on end and laugh. At the end of this year we had plans to leave this hole of a town and drive to wherever the road took us.
Today was the first time that our hand shake didn’t seem real and was forgotten about.

I miss making plans, I miss talking shit, I miss laughing, I miss subway, I miss judging, I miss all the good times, I miss you brightening up my day, I miss your family, I miss you been apart of mine, I miss everything in general about you, I miss when you were one of the only things I cared about. Is it crazy to say I miss your bed?
You will always be the person I question myself about.
Why did I let you go?
Why did I stuff things up?
Why did I push you away?

Why Kate, Why?

Always questioning myself and writing about something I should talk about.